Feeling Butterflies, by I.

Feeling Butterflies.

Feeling butterflies. I hear that phrase and think, how lucky I am, I've never felt butterflies in my stomach. I haven't suffered from being dumped, and I haven't had the joy of feeling loved and knowing someone is thinking about me.

When I see my friends with that sparkle in their eyes and they keep talking about that feeling, all I think about is, what do I care? I'd rather they didn't tell me, I don't want to know because all I feel is envy, and not the healthy kind, and even though I feel terrible at the moment, I hide it very well. I laugh, I ask them, I'm genuinely interested, and I'm even happy about it. And although I'll never say it, I'll put on a poker face, and then when I'm alone, I'll cry because I don't know why I don't deserve those butterflies in my stomach.